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Iā€™m gaining weight… help me!

I’ve gained weights

I really need to loose weight before I loose respect for myself.

I drink diet soda (too much) and water daily.

I’m on medication that makes me hungry and crave food especially at night time. I snack on the wrong things and at the wrong times.

I exercise an okay amount , I do want to increase it though, but my medication makes me sleepy, which makes it hard to get to the gym at night, when I won’t be alone.

Anyone around to bu weight loss buddies I’m 145lbs and want to loose a lot of weight.

Mental health

Sorry for lack of posts.

Lots been going on. I’ve been really distracted. Been Perry sleepy, which I think is the side effects of clozapine.

This weekend I became God mother for my niece. I was so scared about the Christening of my niece but it went really well. I loved every part of it.

I love feeling close to God.

Clozapine is at 100mg in the morning and 309mg in the evening. As well as 500mg pregabline daily, 2mg diazepam and 1.25 bisoprolol.

Weight journey haven’t been good, I’m loosing s pound and then regain it: it’s a yo yo diet. I really want to loose weight. I’m just so hungry all the time especially at night time. I’m drinking a lot of water, well I think 1 litre is a lot. I’m eating too much but how can I control that?

Please help me? I need to shift this weight.

Lots of appointments all week, I have clozapine blood one day, medication pick up another day, cpn meeting and then support worker meeting. So busy. I’m managing to stick to them even if I don’t want too.

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Medication to survive.

I hate the fact that I have to take medication to be sane.

Would I rather be who I really am with no medication or this fake medicated self.

Maybe I want the voices, maybe I want to not know what’s real, may be I want to feel free and feel I have no responsibilities.

I wish I was free.

No medication.

No rules.

Just me!