Things are so confusing and I’m struggling so much especially today.
A night full of night mares, I’ve woke up seeing things which are terrifying me. This day isn’t going to go well, I’m fighting to keep my thoughts straight, I’m fighting.
It’s going to be a really tough day.
I’m in control. Have every possible key to my home. It’s locked and it’s staying that way.
I will be completely alone to hide from the spy’s and try and gain the last bit of control slipping away. No one will care or ever see me again. I guess that proves I was right, the end.
Why can I not see faces on the shadows?
They are spying on me through the windows and spyders and bugs somehow getting in.
These are reporting to the mental health team, government and the devil. They are in control of the spying. They know what there looking for.
There after my DNA to clone me. And will probably keep me in some kind of prison. They wouldn’t want me escaping it’s to risky for them, for there cover to be exposed.
They want me because my body is invincible. I can’t die. It’s physically impossible for my body to die.
I’m terrified because where ever I go I’m in danger. I’m scared.
They want me to take medication but I’m not sure why. Maybe to put bugs in my body to record where I am. And to make me not realise what there up too. I’m not ill so why would I need medication. My body works differently from others.
The Voices are warning me and telling when I’m being followed, they are also telling me to cut and drain. I’m scared of them because they want me to do things I don’t want to do. I’m glad there warning me, maybe they are helping me!
God is really important, he talks to me. He gives me hope that they will stop spying on me and that God can fight off the devil.
I’m scared, I don’t feel safe from them, there all working together. I’ve seen all the signs and the voices are telling me what there up to.
I need to be safe and get away from them.