Today I actually got up, rang a cpn to talk but she was busy so I’m waiting for her call back. I did some work in my pink book about the videos, and later I’m going to look at a self defence course, which I think will help me to leave the flat more often, although I’m really really struggling with my anxiety. I did some washing and now it’s drying. Might see if I can give the flat a proper tidy, but keep getting distracted by the voices, I do feel very suicidal and anxious. I am really not sure what I might do. But oh well.