What a rubbish day. It all started off well but then quickly changed one of my sisters said something that really hurt and upset me. I know my family are all together right now waiting for the new year countdown, while I’m at my place, feeling really low. I don’t feel I can go over there and celebrate with them because of what was said earlier. I also tried to get in contact with an old school friend but haven’t heard anything back. At the minute I’m trying to decide whether or not I want to be on my own. In some ways I do because I don’t feel worthy of anyone’s company and I feel like a waste of space.