I feel really physically ill, I’ve messaged and called a few people with no answer it is 2:30am so kinda expected. I’m too scared to call an ambulance or the hospital, but I’m really not well. He called me and I told him how I feel, come to the conclusion of not sure what to do. I can tell something’s wrong, but I mean if I do nothing and I die, I get what I wanted all day. I think it’s karma coming round.