I’ve never been good at taking medication. When I was younger I used to take liquid medication quite frequently, for no reason at all.
One of my younger sisters was going through treatment for cancer so maybe I thought it was the norm.
Then as I got older aged 13 and put on an antidepressant, that didn’t go well at all, I took it for the first few weeks then, stock piled and overdosed, which lead to me having seizures. Was very scary for family and me. Then medication was closely supervised from then, but I still managed to take at least one overdose every week up until I was 18 and I moved out.
This gave me the freedom and control back. The overdosing became less and I became stronger, but then I was put on antipsychotic medication, I found it hard to remember to take it and got ill, I was then admitted to a psychiatric hospital multiple times, where I got started on a new medications. I’ve tried loads of antipsychotic medications, most helped but had horrible side effects and others didn’t help at all. I’m now on 800mg of slow release quetiapine and diazepam, I’ve been struggling to stick to what I’m supposed to be taking and when at the moment, but I’m think I’m finally starting to get back on track. We will see.