Anxiety · Daily update · Doctors · Mental health · spying · Voices

Plan A

I need to get the device out of my body, so they can no longer track me, and see where I’m going. That way I will feel safer as they won’t be able to prepare to get my DNA if they don’t know where I am and where I’m going. How do I get it out, I’m going to have to get it somewhere that’s easy to get out, I can feel it in my head at the moment, I can’t get it out while it’s in there. 

Then I will Run away, I will be free, I can go where ever I want and be a bit safer than what I was with the device in. 

To keep myself protected, I will need to keep a Bible, my personalised bracelet and necklace, and any candel, these will all make the devil stay away from me personally. I think I will be safe. Unfortunately there’s no guarantee. So I’m glad I’m documenting it on here, if anything happens, at least someone knew, and they can look back on these and know I was telling the truth, and tried to warn people. 

I’m unsure what to do about the voices, do I listen to them or ignore them? It’s a difficult one as they are mean most of the time, but sometimes they do give some good advice and solutions. I think my plan right now would be to ignore the bad voices and bad things they are saying and just listen to Gods voice, and maybe listen when the devil speaks to me Incase he gives clues to what is happening. It will be difficult to choose which ones to listen too, it’s so much easier if I don’t listen to any of them, or choosing that I will listen to them, and then I get overwhelmed. 

I don’t have a Medication plan at the moment. I keep feeling different about it, my mind changes too many times, and never stick to what I’ve previously thought. Also no plan of what to do about alcohol, I think I’m going to have to leave this one to decide what’s best at the times I want it. 

I’m writing everything down, this is my proof of the spying. I’m not safe anywhere, all I want is to feel safe.
Mislead the devil, don’t tell him the plan. Will this work? I have no idea, but I’m going to try. I feel as though the more blood I get out the more control I have over the devil and voices. They voices and spying is causing me so much pain and anxiety. I wish I could get rid if them so I don’t have to feel anxious. I keep hearing unusual noises, it’s making me worried, I’m not sure what I can do about it though. 

I want to be free, I need some help. I want a break, please just a little break from my head, thoughts, voices and the spying. Help me please. No one understands, help me. 

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