I can’t keep fighting this, I’m so scared.
I don’t know why things are so difficult right now. Things have got worse each day since last Friday. So a week ago today. I’ve spoke to gp and care coordinator. They both didn’t say anything that made me change what I want to do and how I feel.
I don’t normally cry but yesterday and today it seems to be streaming out my eyes.
I want to take more medication and drink alcohol. I guess I want to not feel this pain or even remember or think about anything. I want to harm to make the voices happy, or at least get them on my side.
I’m fighting between going out or taking something to make me feel better.