I went to my doctor because I keep collapsing, but instead I got a lecture.
He noticed how much weight I had lost but when he found out my bmi is okay he wasn’t bothered.
He said that I need to find my path and focus in life. I came to talk to him about collapsing and I get a lecture on life. He said you have your driving licence and been on holiday (which was years ago) why are you still struggling… I HAVE MENTAL ILLNESS…. a holiday and licence doesn’t cure it! He just doesn’t get this!
He told me I should move out of the area, thinks that will help. And told me to turn to religion.
He told me it’s really hard to get in the health bmi so I should be happy but wanted to give me steroids to make me hungry so I would eat more and not go down in to underweight. I haven’t got a problem with being hungry, I’ve got a problem with eating calories.
In the end he told me I keep collapsing because lack of food, the fluid diluted my blood. Low blood sugar and low blood pressure and low heamaglobin and iron.
Even though I told him I can’t let myself eat fatty foods he continued to tell me to eat more. I’m sat in front of you physically telling you I’m scared of calories and all I get it eat more.
Wow that was a really awful appointment.
I used to get on really well with him but now he just doesn’t understand.