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I’ve self harmed for years, every scar has a story and meaning. They are evidence of surviving and my life. I had this tattoo designed by scratch, the flame symbolising my brother who’s not here, and all three of my sisters chose a flower. So my arm has been changed from showing my scars and story to the love of my family

Tattoo covering my scars up.

First pic my scars… second the design…the finished tattoo.

Anxiety · Mental health · Personality disorder · Schizophrenia · Therapy


I’m struggling I went back to therapy the beginning of this week.

I was really difficult because we were talking about getting a job and life. I was given a weekly chart to fill out what I do and when.

I feel like I don’t need job and carer advice.

I want to have some one away from the nhs, that I can be really open and I feel free to say anything with out being shared in the office.

So I don’t know what to do. I want to go to have a spare person who is there when I need her but, I’m not sure she is thinking the same as me.

How’s therapy going for you?

What’s your experience with therapy that’s not with the nhs?

clozapine · Mental health

Day hospital for clozapine clinic.

It’s the typical Monday I have to have blood test, in the next few weeks it will be changed to fortnightly, which I’m so excited about. I hate having the blood tests, one-they trigger me and two it’s really inconvenient.

But the Benifits I’ve gained from clozapine it’s worth the test.

Have you any clozapine stories, are you on it?

Has it helped you or someone you know?

What diagnosis do you have when you were put on clozapine?

Tell me your clozapine story? Xxx

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I can’t do it!

It’s so hard, eating. I feel incredibly guilty and fat, I hate myself.

I’m struggling with solid foods or liquid calories. I’m physically struggling to swallow solid foods, and mentally struggling to drink, drinks with calories. I wish I could drink alcohol with out the guilt, calories and gain benefits.

I wish I could live of Diet Coke. Zero calories, and it dehydrates.