TRIGGER WARNING…. overdoes, and medication.
Clozapine is being upped to 400mg
400mg which I’m a bit worried about but I think it will be okay. They know what there doing.
My pregabline is being increased next week too.
When will my medication stop being messed around with.
When will I feel better. It’s such a difficult time. I’ve just to try and put trust in to them.
The urge to overdose is really strong.
I’ve got just over a month too loose thee weight. I have to be determined, I won’t loose the weight if I carry on eating and drinking the way I have been. I need to be strong and discipline myself.
I weigh 144.2lbs. I know fat and gross. I will loose this weight.
First good decision was to not have those biscuits this morning. And I’m planning on going to the gym. I can do this.
44 days… Any support will be very much welcomed.
“I believe I can therefore I will!”
This is my medication, I’m trying to keep up with remembering to take it.
It’s a struggle.
Last week before I started clozapine I had worked really hard to make it as simple as possible.
I did these two boxes, one with all the clothes I might want to wear, all washed and smelling nice, and the other box with activities, books and chargers.
Okay so I’m at the local mental health hospital, I’ve took my firsts dosage of clozapine.
I’m very anxious, also very worried about how quickly my quetiapine is going down, will picture of the dosage later.
Here’s what I took today. It’s 12.5mg.
My blood pressure was low when standing before I took the medication.
I’m now waiting in the cafe writing this post while waiting for my observations to be done hourly until 4pm.
I’ve also got to have a blood test, which I wasn’t expecting.
I’m feeling very anxious but if this goes as well as hoped I could have my life back.
This is my 12.5 mg of clozapine.
I start tomorrow and would love some advice or information about what to expect?
Thank you. X
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Over the years my diagnosis have changed, mainly due to recovering from them, when I was younger I was diagnosed with,
I was treated with antidepressants and had a lot of cbt, (cognitive behavioural therapy.) and weekly meetings with my child and adolescents services. The crisis team were involved a lot, but never found them helpful.
I recovered from depression and coped with ocd through therapy and medication.
Anorexia took a little bit longer to recover from I guess when I was 19 I would say I started to recover by eating in front of people and learning to eat in public.
But I soon discovered alcohol and my weight was still an issue in my head but I don’t remember being anorexic and then overweight. It felt like it happened overnight. But now I’m able to look back on pictures and see that it was the alcohol. I was drinking so much alcohol that I was having twice the daily limit of calories. I was soon over weight and currently still am. Although I lost 50 lbs since this time last year, I slipped back down the alcohol spiral a few months ago and that 50lbs is back on.
Currently I am diagnosed with
emotionally unstable personality disorder.
I’m currently taking medication to keep my symptoms under control, and I am supposed to be started on the strongest antipsychotic currently around. I’m hoping this will help me more. As I’m currently not getting enough relief from the one I’m on. I’ve had a few sessions of therapy but the nhs only give you 20 session and that’s not enough to get into deep emotions, symptoms and behaviours.
So I will carry on fighting.
I’ve only included the diagnosis. I have not included any symptoms. I don’t want to trigger any one, so I won’t be including these and the ways I learn to self cope. If I thought they were helpful I would.
I also haven’t included any physical illnesses as my blog is mainly about mental illness.