TRIGGER WARNING…. overdoes, and medication.
Clozapine is being upped to 400mg
400mg which I’m a bit worried about but I think it will be okay. They know what there doing.
My pregabline is being increased next week too.
When will my medication stop being messed around with.
When will I feel better. It’s such a difficult time. I’ve just to try and put trust in to them.
The urge to overdose is really strong.
I have been so unmotivated for weeks now.
Today has been the first day I got out of bed and stayed awake. I’m even attempting to exercise, to help with loosing weight.
Have you or anyone you know taken clozapine and lost weight?
This is my medication, I’m trying to keep up with remembering to take it.
It’s a struggle.
I have schizophrenia, and emotionally unstable personality disorder, they can’t be cured only managed.
People don’t know enough about mental illness, but this was my MUM asking me her daughter this question!!!
Slept really well, I feel asleep in the cafe yesterday evening, and then got a good 11 hours sleep.
Met with cpn yesterday and was good to talk things through. She made me feel I don’t have to hide that I feel scared of being better and we talked about the voices going.
Today I’m up to 50mg clozapine. Plan is to learn sign language to a song I love.
I’m feeling suspicious about them all talking behind my back. Are they really on my side.
They also said that they were upping my diazepam to the 6mg it was a week ago. I said I don’t want to go back up on diazepam and hopefully they agree.
I’ve managed to continue my step goal the last three days.
Going to try to continue as long as possible.
All going okay.
I start tomorrow and would love some advice or information about what to expect?
Thank you. X
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I’m back in to the local mental health hospital. I had a blood test last week that showed low white blood cells, and because of this I was unable to start clozapine, this is another blood test to see if anything has changed from last week.
I hope they get blood easily, they normally have to try a few times to get enough blood. It’s very frustrating and causes slot of anxiety.
I’m sat in the cafe because they don’t think we are dignified enough to have a waiting room. So it’s going of flows of being busy. It’s making my anxiety going all over the place, but if I go on clozapine I’ve got to get use to waiting here because I will have to do this weekly.
I’m not sure this is the right step for me and is this the sign.
I don’t know what to do, I’ve got my music on and that’s helping me feel calmer, but the voices are talking over it.