My family always put up Christmas lights out side the house, we all love seeing them so why don’t we help dad put them up?
There’s enough of us to help him get it done really quick and then, dad won’t be out in the cold for hours.
I think dad is feeling the same this year, because they have just been left up from last year.
We don’t support or help him enough,
I’m sure they will look as good next year, just as they did last year.
I’ve been struggling really bad the last few days. I’m not 100% sure why.
It could be because I stopped my diazepam cold turkey. I was only on 2mg and had been gradually going do any it was the last move with my medication.
The voices are taking control, I’m self harming more in a way to deal with them. I feel suicidal, and want to hide myself away. I’m hating who I . Im getting lack of sleep. Im very restless. And most of all I’m so anxious it’s stopping me from getting on with my day to day life.
I’ve called my community psychiatric nurse this morning but she was unable to talk so I’m waiting for a call back.
I don’t know what the solution is other than, come off the diazepam slower, or introduce another medication to help with the anxiety or voices.
Meds I’m currently on…
- 400 mg clozapine,
- 1.25 bisoprlol,
- 600mg pregabline.
Any advice from my lovely followers would be helpful. Xx
Stay safe and well, Rosie.
I’ve self harmed for years, every scar has a story and meaning. They are evidence of surviving and my life. I had this tattoo designed by scratch, the flame symbolising my brother who’s not here, and all three of my sisters chose a flower. So my arm has been changed from showing my scars and story to the love of my family
Tattoo covering my scars up.
First pic my scars… second the design…the finished tattoo.
It’s so hard, eating. I feel incredibly guilty and fat, I hate myself.
I’m struggling with solid foods or liquid calories. I’m physically struggling to swallow solid foods, and mentally struggling to drink, drinks with calories. I wish I could drink alcohol with out the guilt, calories and gain benefits.
I wish I could live of Diet Coke. Zero calories, and it dehydrates.
My bracelet leave me be in red and talk to me on green. It’s soft and nice to wear. It’s easy to swap between sides. It’s a large bracelet and as far as I’m aware they only come in inside, and it’s large, even on me and I’m an adult.
It’s a great way non verbal or verbal can express if they want to talk or not.
It’s a great way to express when they want to talk. It’s neutral so it suites both make and female.
It’s great if you can’t verbalise what you want.
This is powerful to me because I also think if it being a person I didn’t think I could be.
I need to stay strong and keep fighting. I want to be normal but be the best me I can be.
I’m anxious and first off if you’ve got any advice or personal stories of trial with clozapine, (clozaril.)
My Diagnosis: anxiety, emotionally unstable personality disorder, and schizophrenia.
I’ve tried most antipsychotic medications, and at really high dosages, they help for a while but then I get resistant to that.
I’m really scared of the weight gain as the side effects, what’s your side effects?