I wish I could call this weightLOSS update, but I’m afraid that I’m heavier than I was this time last year.
I loss 50 lbs altogether and now that’s all back.
I really hate myself for that.
So I guess I need to put a plan in place to get back on that track. I’ve already made a good start to that with stopping alcohol. But I’m still eating loads of really unhealthy foods, and too much of that.
I also feel so tired at the moment and not able to exercise as much as I want.
My white blood cells are low and I wonder if that’s effecting me making me feel sleepy, if not then I really don’t know what to do and what’s going on.
Any help or suggestions would be very helpful.
So my weight is… 150lbs
With a goal of loosing 50lbs.
Help me loose weight.
I’ve been trying to go to the gym, when I go I feel good and it feels brilliant to be getting the endorphins from exercise. I never regret going to the gym, I just regret not going.
I keep finding excuses, or I drink alcohol.
That’s what I’m fighting right now. I’ve put on weight and I feel low and bad, I want to go to the gym tonight, but I’m expecting a delivery and I really want to drink the alcohol so I can say it’s all gone. Plus alcohol in the short term would make me feel better.
I will get to the gym but I need motivation, if my weight gain isn’t enough motivation, I don’t know what will.
How do you motivate yourself?
It feels like yesterday I felt thin and was at my lowest weight this year, the next thing I know I’m back into the overweight category.
I hate myself. I see all or nothing.
What I see in the mirror changes everything time even if I saw it seconds ago, it will be different a second later.
I need to get back down to that weight, it means so much to me to try and loose the weight and feel good about myself.
I’m fat, what I see in the mirror is fat, devil, and distorted. It’s scary.
I hate myself so much.
I’m so fat and no one can tell me otherwise, I know my weight.
I need to make changes but I really would like support, if your going through weight loss please me.
I’m disgusting, I need to keep moving, I don’t want to be lazy.
I don’t deserve anything nice.
I brought these for myself, the book will be used for quotes and encouragement to loose weight. And the bracelet is to remind myself that I can wish all I want, but too loose weight I need to work hard.
Wish all you like but it’s the work that will make it come true. 💫
Yesterday if you read my posts you would already know so I’m sorry for repeating myself.
I had a blood transfusion yesterday and now I have a bit more energy and motivation to get up and loos the weight I’ve put on in the last few months.
I’m not going to lie I have been drinking alcohol and eating really unhealthy foods, so the weight gain is completely from the choices I’ve made.
So I’m trying to make more positive choices. I thought if I’m honest with my online community I might be more honest with myself about what I’m eating. Especially if I get changed on to clozapine. (Which is well know to have weight gain as a side effect.)
Okay. Here goes…. this is my weight. I’m so embarrassed. 😩
Why is it when I’m not looking forward to something or that, it all goes down to me eating too much sugar and fatty, take away foods.
Why? I’m trying to loose weight, why am I craving so much sugar?