I’ve self harmed for years, every scar has a story and meaning. They are evidence of surviving and my life. I had this tattoo designed by scratch, the flame symbolising my brother who’s not here, and all three of my sisters chose a flower. So my arm has been changed from showing my scars and story to the love of my family
Tattoo covering my scars up.
First pic my scars… second the design…the finished tattoo.
It’s so hard, eating. I feel incredibly guilty and fat, I hate myself.
I’m struggling with solid foods or liquid calories. I’m physically struggling to swallow solid foods, and mentally struggling to drink, drinks with calories. I wish I could drink alcohol with out the guilt, calories and gain benefits.
I wish I could live of Diet Coke. Zero calories, and it dehydrates.
My bracelet leave me be in red and talk to me on green. It’s soft and nice to wear. It’s easy to swap between sides. It’s a large bracelet and as far as I’m aware they only come in inside, and it’s large, even on me and I’m an adult.
It’s a great way non verbal or verbal can express if they want to talk or not.
It’s a great way to express when they want to talk. It’s neutral so it suites both make and female.
It’s great if you can’t verbalise what you want.
I’m trying to loose weight and be healthy.
Just went to a local supermarket and I didn’t choose chocolate. That’s not like me.
I’m actually proud of myself right now.
Hopefully the scales will thank me in a few weeks.
I’ve gained weights
I really need to loose weight before I loose respect for myself.
I drink diet soda (too much) and water daily.
I’m on medication that makes me hungry and crave food especially at night time. I snack on the wrong things and at the wrong times.
I exercise an okay amount , I do want to increase it though, but my medication makes me sleepy, which makes it hard to get to the gym at night, when I won’t be alone.
Anyone around to bu weight loss buddies I’m 145lbs and want to loose a lot of weight.
I hate the fact that I have to take medication to be sane.
Would I rather be who I really am with no medication or this fake medicated self.
Maybe I want the voices, maybe I want to not know what’s real, may be I want to feel free and feel I have no responsibilities.
I wish I was free.
Clozapine has given me my life back.
I feel things have improved so much since being on it, but the weekly blood tests and trying to remember to take it twice a day make it so difficult to look just at the positives.
I will admit. Clozapine is the best antipsychotic I’ve been on and trust me I’ve nearly tried them all.