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Restarting my liquid diet again.

I lost weight last time and I want to loose a bit more so I’m going on a liquid only diet for a week to see how that workes. I won’t how much I will loose this time.

Im having lots of water and a skim fast shake and soup is my diet for the next week.

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Chat with dad.

I had a chat with dad today. It was a really nice chat and we don’t do it enough.

I’m so grateful for my dads support and help he gives me.

My Dad said my illnesses and admitted I had an illness, this was a massive step. My parents have always gone round the fact I suffer with mental illness.

I love my parents and I’m so grateful that my dad was able to give me the time and thought today.

I hope that there’s more to come.

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Psychiatrist appointment update.

Today i had my 3 months review with my psychiatrist at the local mental health hospital.

I was so scared. I was meant to be meeting my new cpn. That’s for another blog post.

My cpn, support worker, carer and psychiatrist were all in the one rooks, it was very intimidated. I didn’t really know what to say.

They always want to talk about the spying and my feelings around that. It confuses me because i do see how that is relevant. I know they say it’s because i have an illness that makes me thing these kind of things.

Anyway my clozapine is being increase to 150 mg morning and around 2pm, and then 200mg before bed.

I will still be taking 600mg daily of pregabline, and the medications for my physical health.

Anyway I’m note really sure what was said and that. I’m so there was said and i cant remember much.

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Mental health update.

Things have been really tough. The voices are uncontrollable at times. Blood test Monday took two attempts with the needle so that’s better than the usual 6 times.

I don’t really want medication anymore

I don’t trust my care team. So I’m not seeing them.

I received a letter today about a meeting with my psychiatrist and care co-ordinatior.

Too scared to go out and enjoy the weather. I wish I could, xx