Since starting clozapine the voices are very inconsistent.
Before starting clozapine the voices were with me all most every minute of the day, now it’s so inconsistent. I’ve heard the pretty bad yesterday and today.
I’m trying to stay in control.
I feel I need some thing to release then.
I’ve gained weights
I really need to loose weight before I loose respect for myself.
I drink diet soda (too much) and water daily.
I’m on medication that makes me hungry and crave food especially at night time. I snack on the wrong things and at the wrong times.
I exercise an okay amount , I do want to increase it though, but my medication makes me sleepy, which makes it hard to get to the gym at night, when I won’t be alone.
Anyone around to bu weight loss buddies I’m 145lbs and want to loose a lot of weight.
I hate the fact that I have to take medication to be sane.
Would I rather be who I really am with no medication or this fake medicated self.
Maybe I want the voices, maybe I want to not know what’s real, may be I want to feel free and feel I have no responsibilities.
I wish I was free.
Clozapine has given me my life back.
I feel things have improved so much since being on it, but the weekly blood tests and trying to remember to take it twice a day make it so difficult to look just at the positives.
I will admit. Clozapine is the best antipsychotic I’ve been on and trust me I’ve nearly tried them all.
Hopefully no more changes. I think I’m at the right dosage.
- 400 mg clozapine
- 500mg pregabline
- 2mg diazepam
- 1.25 mg bisoprolol
- Vitamin b complex
They are really helping me to not be symptomatic.
TRIGGER WARNING…. overdoes, and medication.
Clozapine is being upped to 400mg
400mg which I’m a bit worried about but I think it will be okay. They know what there doing.
My pregabline is being increased next week too.
When will my medication stop being messed around with.
When will I feel better. It’s such a difficult time. I’ve just to try and put trust in to them.
The urge to overdose is really strong.
I’ve got just over a month too loose thee weight. I have to be determined, I won’t loose the weight if I carry on eating and drinking the way I have been. I need to be strong and discipline myself.
I weigh 144.2lbs. I know fat and gross. I will loose this weight.
First good decision was to not have those biscuits this morning. And I’m planning on going to the gym. I can do this.
44 days… Any support will be very much welcomed.
“I believe I can therefore I will!”