I can't believe it that one month has flown by, so much has happened some good and some bad.
I still haven't settled in from when I was in hospital but I think that's because everything's been so unpredictable and caused a lot of changes.
I'm really hoping I can beat my record of not going in to hospital in years, especially being sectioned!
I need to stay strong, but I know I can do it.
I think my plans are g oing to be,
- Try and control self harm,
- Focus on weight loss,
- Spend time with family,
- Get organised,
- Challenge myself, (e.g. Go to church)
- Keep medication the same,
- Keep appointments the same,
- Positive times,
Life will challenge you, stay strong!
I believe it was a planed plot to get me in to hospital so that they can do what ever tests and gather information about me that they want. I feel safe and unsafe, mainly from the staff.
I did have an incident when I was here one night, things just got too much for me, but I think that's for another blog post.
I was just going for an outpatient crisis appointment planned meeting with my psychiatrist and community psychiatric nurse, and cousin/carer.
I did not for one second think walking in to this hospital for normal meeting that I wouldn't be able to leave. I didn't say good bye to my cats or have there food out and plans in place.
I was so shocked I walked from the outpatient floor to the acute psychiatric inpatient ward, with out thinking or even remembering how did I get here, I think a few days later it final set in that I was here and sectioned under the mental health act and that I wouldn't be able to leave and have no idea of when I will get out?
I lie to get out it it's only me that looses as I still feel like rubbish whether I'm in hospital or home.
Medication change was the plan but I'm just starting to be able to loose the weight again. So do I really want to mess that up again?
So I’ve got 62 days which in my head doesn’t sound a lot it makes me think about every little choice I’m making about food and drink.
Current I’m in an acute mental health ward, after completely loosing touch with life. I will admit now that I’m on the right medication I can see how things are and it’s pretty scary. I’m sectioned under section 2 of the mental health act. I still have 16 days on my section, but I’m hoping I will have my tribunal really soon so I can get out of here.
I’ve learnt my lesson don’t stop or mess around with medication.
Anyway back to the weight loss plan…
Well I don’t really have one. I don’t know what I should do, should I follow my own diet plan? Or something like slimming world, I really have no idea.
Any help appreciated.
What I do know I’m going to do.
- Medication correctly everyday,
- Caffeine products,
- Low kcal or no kcal drinks,
- Drink at least two litres everyday,
- Aim 10, 000 steps a day, which is difficult in a small ward,
- I’m not aiming to starve myself, but I know I need to eat less than I burn,
- When I get out of here gym three times a week,
- Try to eat as healthy as possible,
- Weigh myself once a week I think Fridays.
Any other suggestions please help me, I’m aiming to loose a lot of weight.
Just met my solicitor for my tribunal to get off my section 2, I’m not sure if I’m doing the right thing or not?
I’m really scared, it’s all so serious, how will I cope in a tribunal? What are tribunals like?
I enjoy writing blog posts especially as it’s a way to get rid of feelings and to let others know what’s going on.
But I forget to look for other blogsz I’m sure there are loads out there in similar situations and I want to be able to share experiences and keep up with what life is throwing at you. So I’m going to find new blogs to follow, why don’t you join me… search something that relates to you and follow some new amazing blogs. Xx
Today I’ve been in an acute psychiatric hospital for a week. I’ve been in this hospital and some others many times, but it doesn’t make it any easier, especially when your parents don’t support you.
Today my dad sent me a text saying that all he wants for his birthday is for me to be out of hospital. Switch it round for a second if I had cancer like my sister did he wouldn’t want to rush me out of the hospital. So why is it so different in a mental hospital.
I’m in a psychiatric hospital not a prison and it’s not a punishment, I’m here to get better because I became more unwell. Where do you go when you feel unwell, to the doctors or hospital, that’s what’s happened to me.