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My 1,501 post.

Yey!!!Hope my posts help someone and allow me to vent all emotions and feelings. I’m a mental health blogger.

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Today 2.6.18

Today I had to go for level Blood tests, so my clozapine can be upped. Because I’m struggling so much right now.

The voices and thoughts are controlling everything I’m doing, and this is a horrible way to live.

Weight- my weight is too High, I need to loose weight and I’ve took actions to do this

Swimming- I did go swimming.

I was given a gift, lemon graze flapjack. A post card with a cat on.

And a rose body wash.

Thank you.

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Struggling!

The last few weeks I’ve been really struggling. I’ve been taking medication and alcohol to help deal with my life.

I am harming more, the voices have been more noticeable. I can no longer just ignore them.

I hate it all. I’m really scared.

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My support worker, what should I do with her.

I have a support worker and I’d like to work on getting out the house and achieve things I’m unable to on my own.

I’d like your ideas of things I could try, maybe things you’ve tried with your support or care team?

Maybe things other people with out mental illness are able to achieve especially at aged 25?

Any ideas?

My ideas are….

  • I’d like to go out for a walk around the area I live,
  • I’d like to walk a bit farther, maybe a a short drive then a walk,
  • Making a cup of tea or coffee for someone else.
  • Go in to a shop
  • Buy something in a shop by self service
  • Buy something at a check out with a person where you need to talk.
  • Go to a shop and not buy something
  • Walk up town
  • Volunteer at the rspca, church,
  • Maybe if i’m accepted go to a group therapy
  • Go to a gym club
  • Go swimming at the gym.

Any other ideas will be greatly appreciate?

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Chat with dad.

I had a chat with dad today. It was a really nice chat and we don’t do it enough.

I’m so grateful for my dads support and help he gives me.

My Dad said my illnesses and admitted I had an illness, this was a massive step. My parents have always gone round the fact I suffer with mental illness.

I love my parents and I’m so grateful that my dad was able to give me the time and thought today.

I hope that there’s more to come.

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Struggling so much right now.

This week has not come to an end quick enough.

I’m struggling with the voices and my thoughts are all over the places

I’m scared and think the self harm is going to take a big kick down that road.

I hate it when I don’t have control.

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Mental health update.

Things have been really tough. The voices are uncontrollable at times. Blood test Monday took two attempts with the needle so that’s better than the usual 6 times.

I don’t really want medication anymore

I don’t trust my care team. So I’m not seeing them.

I received a letter today about a meeting with my psychiatrist and care co-ordinatior.

Too scared to go out and enjoy the weather. I wish I could, xx