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Weight loss

Yesterday if you read my posts you would already know so I’m sorry for repeating myself.

I had a blood transfusion yesterday and now I have a bit more energy and motivation to get up and loos the weight I’ve put on in the last few months.

I’m not going to lie I have been drinking alcohol and eating really unhealthy foods, so the weight gain is completely from the choices I’ve made.

So I’m trying to make more positive choices. I thought if I’m honest with my online community I might be more honest with myself about what I’m eating. Especially if I get changed on to clozapine. (Which is well know to have weight gain as a side effect.)

Okay. Here goes…. this is my weight. I’m so embarrassed. 😩

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Weight.

My weight has been going up since I started messing around with it a few months ago. So all that weight I worked so hard to loose has come back on and it’s difficult as I’m relying on the alcohol to get me through the day which is extra calories.

I’m trying to loose weight, but the thought of it is much easier that having to put the effort in.

So I’m at a weight I’m not happy with and want support to loose this weight and get healthier again. So please feel free to join me in my weight loss challenge which is to get healthier, not to fuel an illness.

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Comfort food, why?

Why is it when I’m not looking forward to something or that, it all goes down to me eating too much sugar and fatty, take away foods.

Why? I’m trying to loose weight, why am I craving so much sugar?

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I don’t want any more scars.

I’m so embarrassed in front on my own family. I hate how I look, fat, stretch marks and scars self inflicted and non self inflicted.

I will never get the chance to go back in time and not hurt myself, or back in time about going to one extreme of eating disorder to the other.

I do want to try to love my body, here’s 3 things I love about my body…

  • My tattoos,
  • My legs when they’ve been shaved and feel smooth,
  • The colour of my hair,

Now it’s your turn…

Comment three things you love about your body… ❤️